Stingless bees 养蜂记 5

After one week and after many peeps, finally one hive show very encouraging signs where honey pots built and two sealed. What an achievement! This indicate that the hive is active with a healthy and strong queen, besides it also means the resources around are quite sufficient.

来到了一个星期，蜂的表现蛮出色的，其中一个已经是有多粒的蜜包建好了，而且其中两个已经满了被封包了。另一窝到今天还无法看到蜂包的样式被建立起来，但是可以肯定的是它是一群强蜂。我们需要的是对它们多一点的耐心。

Stingless bees 养蜂记4

What a surprise with this native bees found at water apple tree. To get rid of it or not is a decision to make soon.

今天在水蓊树上发现了土蜂，有惊喜有担心。

Stingless bees 养蜂记 3

21September 2016

Amazed by the activities, some carried pollen balls with both legs, some seems not carried any visible things and some took out tiny wood spikes.
A busy day it seems. You just can sit and observed without realized time pass by.

好疗愈的一个下午时光。看着它们忙碌的带回来各种颜色的花粉，两个后脚粘着花粉球。有的似乎没有带上什么东西，还有很多会从窝里带着木屑出来。

My coffee time 咖啡时光

Been trying a few beans brought from Taiwan.

近期尝试的豆

My coffee time 咖啡时光

This should consider a boldness hobby I picked up recently. Due to low tolerance to caffeine, enjoy a cup of coffee seems alien to me.

享受咖啡在这之前是奢侈的事，喝咖啡就付上睡眠质量的代价让我止步。通过朋友介绍了手磨咖啡，让我有了多点的勇气尝试。

Stingless bees 养蜂记

A good bees breeder should upkeep the environment with resinous, pollen and nectar resources

Stingless bees 养蜂记 2

18 September 2016

Topping done

Stingless bees 养蜂记 1

Logs was selected on 17 September 2016

Is the itama sepsis in the stingless bee family. Was recommended by a few bees breeders as this sepsis is suitable for backyard breeder.

Stingless bees 银蜂

Keeping a sustainable honey supply have been my dream for quite some time. There was once I share this with hubby of the possibility to get a small piece of land, near to the forest. On that piece of land, a small house built, a small pond with fish and a few hives of bees. Yeah, a dream. A dream far away.
曾经有过那么的一个念头能拥有一片小小的地。那里树立着一个小屋子，有着流水的鱼塘和几个蜂箱。是的，一个小小的梦想。

Wow

Wow, it's really been a while that I haven't pen down anything. Really been a while.

今天就那么的想起了这个地方，发现还真的是好久没有来了。荒凉无比啊！

have't write for quite some times, may be i should take up the writing again. I am now at a stage of confusion as what language should I penned down my thoughts.

As age grows

Ten years ago, my late mother commented that I had become very quiet.
She recalled how talkative I am when I am at young age until teenage.
I talk even less nows a day.
will it be a day when I dont even bother to talk at all?

He have fought a good fight

a brother in Christ pass away recently.

when i first got the news, i was unable to respond to it.
we met last year at a 20 years anniversary gathering.
my thought went very slow in respond to this sad news.
i must attend his wake and hopefully by my present will
let his wife know that we care.

but, who are we the mortal to comfort the lost of a dear husband?
only He is able.

The Pain

6 young souls drown last saturday. News and pictures of these lost lives were one of the prominent feature in the daily news that i subscribe.

Every morning when I read the news, I just can't hold back my tears reading the report, especially how they lives shone and had impact their parents and friends. They had lived their lives to the fullest and their had left the footprints. They were deeply missed not only by parents and sibling but also the hearts of those who had came to contact with them.

My heart especially go out for the parents. I am a mother to 4. This pain will be part of them for the rest of their lives. They will just had to live with it.

a new year

a new year arrived quietly in the midst of busyness.

despite of that, we decide to go for a movie!

the last time i watched a movie was lord of the ring III!

feel very excited on the way to the theater. heart pumping like a young child driving by the parents to the movie!

wow! when was the last time i m having this kind of excitement? i can't remember. i would like to have this emotions back in my life again!

Rejection

I am going thru trauma for the past week.
Rejection!!!!
I found out I am not good in taking it! Wow! What a new discovery about myself. I am eaten by the bitterness of rejection. I resent with very emotional thoughts and reasons. I felt very depress and wanna to quite. I refused to get out from bed....
I feel weak in and out!
Silently i prayed, ask God to comfort me, i wanna to runaway, i want to give up!
He said, He knew me, loved me and walked with me and this comforted me!
And I asked the grace to take rejection!

Something NEW

I brought a new toy recently. It was a new hand phone. It is not my second hand phone. I had my first hand phone 4 years back, a used hand phone which was given to me by friend. My second hand phone was also a used hand phone given to me by my brother.

Then, I was offer by my hubby to get a new one. My hand phone had some problem with the battery then. I had chosen one, which is relatively cheap. I was very happy with it for the last two years. Most of my student said that I can keep that hand phone in a museum. None of my student had that old model. It was a Nokia 3310. Most of them had colour screen, in fact all of them.

Lately, I found myself very forgetful. I need reminder in the phone to help me around. The Nokia 3310 can only accommodate 5 reminders. Getting a new one with bigger memory is playing in my mind. But another concern arise, what am I looking for?

To cut the story short, I end up with Nokia 6300. A new hand phone as other see it. But it has another significant. It was so not me, as I see myself and the new toy that I had brought. Something new in me, I can pamper myself and not feeling sorry about it. I was thrilled with the new toy for many days. Life is so nice not solely because I got a new toy, also I had learn to listen to myself.

What is the ointment of spikenard of me?

As i reflect my life after turning in 40s, i can't help but full of my gratitude to the Lord my Saviour. I was blessed in many-many ways. And i always want to offer the Lord something as my ways of thankfulness to Him?
As i read John 12:3 reads "Then took Mary a pound of ointment of spikenard, very costly, and anointed the feet of Jesus, and wiped his feet with her hair: and the house was filled with the odor of the ointment."
I am asking myself, what is the ointment of spikenard of me to the Lord? My career? Family? finance? time? talent?......
I am seeking Him, and He will reveal to me. I shall sit at His foot and listen........

a lesson learn hard

I had a fall on Good Friday. It was a bad fall. As a result of this, I had three standard steel plating and fifteen screws as part of the body weight that I should carry in the coming two years.
The recovery was pains taking. The physical and emotional traumas were unbearable at the beginning. As the pains slowing fading, my emotional was very much difficult to play with.
As i prayed to God, I ask why He let this things happen to me, for He knows that I can bear such pain, I cried a lot before i knocked off. I ask Him what can I learn from this?
Now, 14 weeks after the incident, I learnt the lessons. The slow down lesson.
As I reflect back for the past 40+ years, I hardy walk, I run. I am always on the move. I will do washing, cooking, cleaning, watering, planting at the same time.
I will put the frying on the stove to heat up, while the heating process, i put laundry in the washing machine, and soak those white school shirts that need a touch of hand. Back to the stove, i pour in the oil, i fill the watering can with water. the pan is hot, I put in the fish. Leaving the fish in the pan, I will take the watering can and water the plants. I will take a look at the plant if they need weeding. Then I rush back to the stove, just on time to turn the fish to another side. That will take another 3 minutes, I will do some cutting and preparation for next dish. Before I sent the dish to the dinning table, I will scrub the white shirt before I started the machine.

Now, I can only do one things at a time. I want to get all things above done at the same time as before, but my movement has been very slow now. If I do my cooking, I will just doing the cooking and nothing more. I am having hard time to adjust to this new pace. A brand new version of a slower of me in the making.

peace within me

As I aged, i notice there are some changes in me. I get tired easily, i need a different kind of spectacle, I feel uneasiness at joints; and changes of attitudes. I felt more at peace with myself and not to take too much of others opinions. I guess that's what you named wisdom. I gained wisdom in exchanged of grey hair. And I am not sad about it. I like it this way.